Today

today i looked back at everything that happened throughout  my live, and i actually miss it all. i got to say, there were a lot of boring stuff that happened, and i was always just looking for the end of every event because nothing seemed like anything, but now i just can't say that. it used to be that i was always looking for my-own self gain in everything and just went after what might make me happy. now; i don't care, but am looking to make what memories i have left totally something worth remembering.